OH MY GOD...I cannot apologize enough. I straight up suck. Well, I went away and had simultaneously the most relaxing and invigorating vacation a girl could have. Just a brilliant time. Let me explain why it seems as though I've abandoned my site when I haven't. Well, remember when my computer exploded? When Oly fixed it and gave me Windows XP, I was supposed to install a bunch of things, one being America Online so I could dial up when I was away. I can only use my computer to update because the program needs to be installed. The site program I have, AOL, not so much. It's just one of those things that are always on your computer, so I forgot to get it while I was home with my DSL to get it. So, I plugged it in while I was vacationing, got ready to update like I promised I would, and nothing...no way to get online. Shit, I guess I could have updated as I went and then just posted them all at once when I got home, but I didn't come up with that idea until right this second, so that's why I didn't. Oops. Sorry.

It's great to be home. I missed my room, my chair, my bed. I missed my DSL, my TV, my Friends and Golden Girls. I missed instant messages. I missed my neighborhood and my family. I'm excited to be back in Boston, which is a strange feeling. I never really appreciate it here until I've been gone for long enough. I've got a lot to do to prepare myself for the next few months. I've been thinking a lot about the big future - you know, as in the rest of my life. I've been changing a lot of my ideas about what it's important to me. I'm definitely going to be writing a lot about it in Random Thoughts. I STILL have to finish that damn episode review as if it mattered at this point. The Las Vegas cast has wrapped and everything. Their first episode is editted and ready to go. I think the season will explode with ratings. Good for them. I hope by then I really don't care, but I'm sure I will.

God, I feel so refreshed. I mean, I don't feel as scared about life or the future. I just enjoyed myself and others SO much these past few weeks. I feel so secure in my feelings that it's like I can take a deep breath for the first time in a long time. It's like Superman just flew in a picked me up, saved me from whatever there was to be saved. I feel fortunate, I am fortunate. Okay, I'm going to get writing...

Oh, are you doing magic? Let's see then...