I think we can all agree that American Idol had no business being 2 hours long. What the fuck was that for? "Hi, this is the sound board, these are the people who pull the curtains, this is the history of the Kodak Theatre." Also, do we need to introduce Kelly and Justin four hundred times? Longest two hours of my life. And it WASN'T because of the suspense. Was it really a mystery? Did anyone actually think Justin would win? Hey, I love Justin, there is nothing personal there. He's a great talent, seems sweet, cutie...a great guy, but he wasn't going to win. So, after 19 hours of Dunkelman and Seacrest nauseating me to where I thought I would lose my Dad's homemade beef jerky I had previously enjoyed, they have Kelly and Justin standing side by side, "This is Kelly, this is Justin, Kelly, Justin, Kelly, Justin," YEAH I KNOW WHO THEY FUCKING ARE. Kelly wins and sings the song about how some people wait a lifetime for a moment like hers. Damn right. So, I officially decided that Kelly has the ideal life right now. I am 100% jealous and will not deny it. She didn't have years of struggle, of finding managers, of finding a record deal, of mall tours, of creating a buzz. She literally walked into a new life where the world loves her, respects her, and that's that. Makes my future feel even more confused.

Okay, I'm currently watching Dismissed. Guilty pleasure. I know I've discussed this before, but I need to talk about it anyway. First off, they're discussing their different views of moving in together before marriage. One girl said it ruined things and that you should wait until you're married. I've heard that statistic about how marriages where the couple moved in together ended earlier, so people conclude that you shouldn't move in together. I'm sorry, that's ridiculous. We're looking at the length of the marriage, not the length of the relationship. I think these studies would show that the relationship would be just as long, but the marriage would vary in lengths. You're still together the same amount of time though, so I don't get it. Besides, how scary is it if you have a husband or a wife, and you don't even know how to share a mutual space together? There is no way in hell I'd marry someone without living with them first. You can't NOT know what it's like to share a bed together, to be in each others' face when you're home before you've sworn to be that way forever. Jesus, you're used to having your own space to go home to whenever you want, and now you don't...you need to be mentally prepared for something like that.

Am I lame for wanting to see Swimfan? I know what happens, I just want to see how he gets her back in the end.

Okay, going to clean my room...lates