later today...

Okay, I realize that I've reached a point of obsession on this subject. I realize that it is completely pathetic of me to care so much about this, to comment on it as often as I do. I know that I'm being a hypocrite by allowing myself to be involved in someone else's life that has nothing to do with mine, but J.Lo is an Revealed with Jules Asner soon, and the clip of her in the preview she giggles, "I mean, I'm just a simple girl from the Bronx!" I'm sorry, I need to slap her. I need to be paid for everytime she fucking says that, and if I was, I wouldn't worry about my bartending job, that's for damn sure.

My legs are aching horribly from running yesterday. Now, that's horrible. I need to get back in shape. This is simply sad.

SO...amazing, amazing news: The order is in for my new computer, and it will be here in three days. I won't be here in three days, I'll be on vacation, but when I return, a whole new world awaits. Now, I won't have anything more to do on the computer than I did before. In fact, my time in doing anything on the computer at all will be cut in half because of how quickly I will be able to accomplish anything I need to do. That's good. Then maybe I'll get out of the house more. Either way, I am about to be a proud owner of Dell. Now, this computer is very slow, we know this, but if anyone out there wants to buy it (for a reasonable price considering how it works), well I'll be more than willing to sell it. I mean, it does work, and if there are people out there who like the idea of using the computers we used at Arista on the show, then they can own it. I don't know, it's just an idea I'm throwing out there. We'll discuss this again. I'll need to figure out how to go about selling it.

Oh, speaking of selling, I'm going to soon sell the motor scooter we got from the Hamptons episodes from the show as well. It works well - brand new and used only a few times during those four days in the Hamptons. We'll discuss this later as well.

God, I watched entirely too much TV today. I don't even know how to stop. There is nothing on at all right now, and I feel like I've run out of the drug I need to keep from having the shakes. I need to read. It's so damn good for the soul, and I think my soul is starving.

I've been warned about websites and message board checking once the Challenge airs. My new fast computer will make it really easy to just peek in on what people are saying, and that's bad bad bad. Not a THING that's good about it. I have to be careful. I have someone helping me come up with ways to ensure that I do NOT go near those sites. I even have to email everyone I know to remind them to not tell me anything they read on those sites. I know I don't have the stomach for it. It was a miserable lesson to learn, and I don't feel like learning it again. It was hard enough the first time. I have to be smarter about it now.

I'm bored shitlesss with my hair again. It's really never ending. Now, it some weird length where it's flat against my head, but oddly bulbous in the ends. It's just not that cute, and I don't know how to make it cute. I think I want a style that just does something. Just one, nice and simple thing. This is frustrating. Salons are so expensive. Ugh.

God, I am feeling horribly bland. I really want to turn on the TV. It is an addiction. I need help.