little later...

I don't know why I'm writing so much today when I have so little to say.

I found Colin's website. It's brand new. Colinsworld.com - it's a very good site. Has me a bit jealous, actually. It's very him. It has nice, clean graphics, many sections, generally interesting site. He's a great writer. I knew he was a brilliant mind, so I imagine his site will be quite entertaining. He has a lot of speaking tours and he's putting out a quote book. I remember him carrying around a quote book - he was quite a Nazi about it. No one could touch it, and I heard he slept with it under his pillow. As bitter as he was about his show, he seems to be making quite a nice little living off of being a Real Worlder - so here I am, frustrated again about my own situation. Grrr... He also included some insight about the spitting shit that I completely forgot about. That's what happens when you care too little to pay attention. And that's strange for me because usually, I'm such a gossip.

I'm supposed to be leaving momentarily for a meeting at this woman's house. It's a meeting with all the people I took the self-defense course with to discuss how we're doing, if we've used our training, and to watch the tape made of our graduation. I have been going back and forth all day about going. It's the epitome of small talk, and I'm in a horribly grumpy mood. I don't know what happened, but I feel shitty and frustrated. I didn't eat well yesterday.

I have to go to this thing, I feel like it would be fucked up if I didn't go.