(little later...)

So, I’m looking at this thing on cnn.com entertainment about Britney auctioning off some things for charity. She’s letting go of that incredible outfit from the 2001 VMAs. What I wanted to discuss was how great she looks in the picture standing next to the piece. It’s with her short, darker hair, that I wasn’t thrilled about when I first saw it. It’s starting to grow on me. Well, first of all, it’s MY haircut…actually, hers is a little shorter, but that’s only because mine has grown so fast and it’s been a few weeks since I cut it. Anyway, I’ve always wondered if a woman’s degree of hotness is directly correlated with hair length. As in, is it almost always the case where the longer the hair, the hotter the girl. Now, I mean hair length to a limit. If you hair is too your ankle, that’s just too much. But I mean, look at Cameron Diaz. She sported the short hair forever, and she looked really great, but now that she’s doing the long hair thing, isn’t she kind of hotter? I first brought this up because I think Britney has an all new version of hotness going on here in this picture. It’s like this sleeker, sophisticated sexy, rather than just plan slut sexy (and I mean that in a good way). I’m looking at this picture, and I’m wondering how she would look if everything was the same in it, but she had the long blonde hair with long bangs. Yeah, she would look hot, but she’d look…trashy kind of hot. I think in this picture, she looks 30 year old kind of hot. Adult hot. So, that’s what I’m wondering. Is one hotter? I mean, I’m sure it’s just a matter of personal preference. When I first cut my hair, I was concerned about my level of attractiveness, if it would just go down because short hair isn’t as hot, isn’t as…feminine. I mean, there’s something that feels sexier as a girl (for me) about feeling that hair on your back on or your shoulder. The thing with me though, is that my hair can’t look good really long because it’s so thin. Well, it is healthy now, so may it would look okay long, but long thin hair…it just looks thinner when it’s long. But then there are times that I go out now with my short hair, and I do feel really sexy. You can see my back and my shoulders. It feels…like what I said, a sophisticated sexy. But it’s difficult to not be intimidated by the long-haired beauties. But then I think back to when I had long hair, and some girl with short hair walked along, I’d be intimidated by her because I think it takes a lot of confidence to have short hair. It shows that you don’t need to rely on that typically feminine feature to still be beautiful. If I saw a short-haired girl, I’d think, “Wow, that means she really believes in the power of her body, her face, her personality,” because it’s easy for an insecure, not so great chick to hide behind a beautiful mane of hair to keep her feeling powerful. I do feel confident to sport the short hair. I mean, you all didn’t know me back when I had the REALLY short hair. I used to have pictures of it on my old site. Yeah, it was pixie short. Like, old school Winona short. That was crazy. I can’t believe I did that. I had it like that for over a year too. I fucking loved it. Weird.

Okay, I don’t know sports. I don’t know who’s great, why, history – nothing. But Howard Stern was talking about this guy Lebron James, and his new contracts. So, apparently, this guy who hasn’t even PLAYED professionally yet has already become a MILLIONAIRE SO MANY TIMES OVER. I’m sorry, but what the hell is that about? That’s just…just not even conceivable. 90 million dollar contract with Nike, then 11 million dollar contract for when he signs on to play (right?), and another million or something for something else, I can’t remember. Over $100,000,000.00. I don’t even understand that. That’s more money than I can understand, so I don’t even know what that means. I’m still blown away by the idea that I could make $400 in one night serving shots in test tubes. Wow. I’m sorry, but that’s so crazy that I think we need to stop talking about it altogether. Let’s never speak of it again.

But it made me think a little bit more about the whole work world a little more. I used to think (and I think a lot of us thought this at one time or still do) that the ideal situation would be to make a shitload of money doing something really easy, maybe even brainless. Well, I thought that anyway. And, speaking engagements are mindless money-bag experiences, and yes, I will take them if I’m asked and available because chunks of cash into my bank account DOES help things. But anyway, I mean for a regular job. Because it’s fun to do whatever you want, to not have to get stressed out, to not have money ever be a problem. It’s starting to really sink in that I’ve been wrong about all this. I don’t mean this to sound as deep as I know it’s going to come out – but I don’t feel like our purpose in life is to dick around and make mad cash. I don’t think our Personal Legends are about sleeping in, getting drunk at night, and buying whatever shit we want. It sounds okay, yeah, but it’s not. We’re happiest when we’re doing something and doing something we’re proud to be doing. Doing something that makes us feel worthwhile. Working hard feels GOOD, and getting paid for something that you put your heart into, wow that’s even more amazing. I don’t think Lebron is in this category. Well, first off, he’s not doing anything mindless. But he IS doing something he loves to do – play his favorite game. And he IS getting more money than he could probably spend.

Wow, the weather looks just SO horrible this week. So depressing.

Whoa, I just went to Howard Stern’s site, and he has a picture of the man with the largest arms in the world. It actually looks like he’s growing six extra heads out of his arms. I think that his biceps are LITERALLY the size of my head.

So, I need to find some good websites to visit all day. By mid-day, I’ve got nothing to look at while I’m waiting.

I guess I’ll just talk about the new seasons coming up on MTV. Okay, this is what’s fun for me, this is the first time since I’ve been on the show that I have NO dirt on these people. I like it because it’s just a normal show to me, but no, I won’t be reviewing it here because I can’t be a sight to add to these poor kids’ frustrations with criticism. They get enough of that already. I will have an opinion though. The fun thing about being an alum is that if I did want to get some dirt (you know, just for the joy of good gossip) there are indeed ways to find it out. Someone in the family always has the dirt. Anyway, the new Paris kids (the lucky fuckers)…well, the picture of them looks like a picture of BC students standing outside of Gasson Hall. It’s a normal looking bunch, which has me really looking forward to this season. I hear it’s supposed to be little more tame, something like Seattle, and I’ve been waiting for a new Seattle. I wish I didn’t like the show so much before I was on it. Now, I feel like I’m a loser for watching it, like it’s for different reasons, but I can’t help it. I didn’t really watch Vegas though. I didn’t at all, actually. There’s something about the quality of film for Real World that I like. It’s part of the appeal for me. Real Cancun – I didn’t see it, but I don’t like that it’s film. It looks like any other movie, and it’s harder to believe it’s real. The Real World tapes (not film) looks like you’re just watching someone’s home made tapes, but a little better. When you see it come on, you HAVE to watch.

Just read at cnn.com that Seacrest fucked up twice on the difference of votes between Ruben and Clay. Apparently, the difference was 130,000 votes, NOT 1300, which is about the samenot.

Interesting, I see that there are still people who wouldn’t miss a single entry on my site, wouldn’t miss reading a single word, all for the joy of bashing it on another site. What commitment. Pathetic or impressive? A little bit of both, I’d say. Wow, just hanging on every word. Got something to say about this? Of course you do, what else would you do?

High school shit never ends. It really doesn’t.

Let’s move on before we get them too excited about having more ammunition…acknowledgement gets people giddy, even if it’s negative attention. For those of you who go to those sites, watch them completely explode right now. Fascinating.

I’m not having a miserable day. I’m not, and that’s good. This last hour has been a little more frustrating (people I need to call are getting antsy at work and want to get off for the long weekend already). I’m concerned about the fact that they haven’t called us off yet for tonight. I mean, it’s in the low 40s and raining…or lightly drizzling, as it were.

Okay, it’s the end of the day. I haven’t been called out of work, so, though two different websites are saying it’s going to rain all night, I have to have the mentality that I’m going to work tonight. I’ll let you know what happens…