Okay, I don’t want to get all political on your asses, and I don’t want to go into this TOO too much because, well, I get all fired up and there’s nothing I can do about it. This is why I enjoy ignorance when it comes to politics. I hate knowing shit and being pissed all the time. Seriously, is there anyone out there who’s ever happy when discussing politics? You just sit around and talk about how fucked up this administration is and how we’re all fucking doomed – is it okay that I kind of HATE talking about that? Some politics are forced at me, and then I’m forced to care and get all worked up about it – namely the FCC with relation to Howard Stern. I love Stern. I listen to him every single morning, and I love him. I think that anyone who doesn’t love him doesn’t listen to him and gets their opinions of him from some completely distorted outside force. He’s the most harmless guy on the planet. He’s not even shocking to have earned the title “shock jock.” He’s a regular guy who personifies loyalty and is just trying to make people laugh and be a little more honest. Anyway, some guy, I don’t even know who – like a senator or congressman (that’s how much I know) was talking about how he wants to try to get cable and satellite radio censored. Even though you CHOOSE to purchase it, he still thinks it should be regulated for indecency. His reason why he thinks this violation of the constitution is merited? Because he has four little kids, and he still wants to be able to have cable so he can watch whatever he wants, but he doesn’t want to worry about his kids accidentally seeing something they shouldn’t see. Could he just not buy cable? Absolutely. However, this man would rather eliminate free speech altogether than actually do his own fucking job as a parent. He doesn’t want to bother setting the parental controls. He doesn’t care to sit down and actually fucking talk to his children about what they can and cannot watch. He doesn’t care enough to just get rid of the cable and make that sacrifice to keep his children away from profanities and sex (as though they’re so fucking stupid and don’t already know about all of that). This goddamn man doesn’t know how to be a good father, so he thinks the rest of the world should change so he doesn’t have to do any fucking work. As you can see, this shit pisses me off. Meanwhile, here I am on the internet at a website that any baby Tom, Dick, or Harry could type in and visit, and I swear like I’m getting paid $20 a curse. (Wow, I’d have so much money). But you know what? This is how I talk. It’s MY webjournal. And you CHOOSE to come here and read this. This is not advertised ANYWHERE. This website is not a pop-up that you’re forced to look at while you’re privately checking your email. You have to research me, find this place, and deliberately decide to come here and read it. However, I’m not censored at all, and thank God! But I do find it interesting in light of this whole indecency scandal going on. Are internet controls set so that if the computer reads several curse words on the page, you can’t open it? That’d would be one way to keep the youngin’s from seeing this.

It’s just that I get so angry at the ultra-conservatives. I don’t understand why they’re here. I mean, if you don’t like that your country is a bit freer than others, then go to the others. There are PLENTY of countries that will help keep your children in line for you if you’re not capable of being a good parent. I mean, just get the fuck out of here.

And can we talk about how ridiculous this all is to begin with? Why do we think kids are stupider now that they were when they’re CLEARLY smarter? Why do we try to hide shit from there which then only gives what we’re hiding more value? I think I was cursing like a sailor when I was in kindergarten. Did I curse in class? Do I curse at work? No – just on my own time, and guess what? No one gets hurt. I’m fine. You’re fine. You think kids don’t know about sex? You think kids don’t feel that they’re sexual beings from the time they’re born? Not everyone thinks that the opposite sex has coodies until they hit puberty. We’re always aware. Hiding shit doesn’t help. NOT talking about things NEVER helps. If your kid has questions, try answering them.

I remember when I was in kindergarten, I saw a swear word written on a wall. We were all heading home from church – mom and dad in front and me and my sisters in the back of the car, and I said, “Mom? What does F – U – C – K spell?” ”Fuck,” my mom replied without reacting or skipping a beat. My oldest sister jumped, and yelled, “MOOOOOM, you can’t SAY that to her!” (Meanwhile, she’s only in 5th or 6th grade at this point.) My mom said, “She asked me what it spelled. That’s what it spells.” Did that launch me into using the word all the time? No, but I knew that what my mom did was cool and that she respected me enough to tell me the truth. It also meant I could always go to her if I had a question, and she wouldn’t keep anything a mystery with me. She knew that if I needed an answer, she would rather be the one to give it to me. Then she knows what I know and feels comfortable that I didn’t get some false information from someone else.

What I’m saying is that nothing was hidden from me. I watched and listened to anything, and when I was confused or had a question, I asked and then received an answer. Nothing was a mystery, so I felt no need to rebel. Of course, because I had it so easy and it SEEMED so easy to be a mom because of the way my mom did it, I’m sure I’ll fuck my children up. I’ll be so scared for them, I’ll BECOME a conservative. No, no. My mom wouldn’t allow it. Look, I understand that I’m nearly 26, and no where near being a mom. I know that my opinions may change once I AM a mom, but that also doesn’t mean I’m wrong. I don’t think your anxieties and fear from love that you develop as a mom should cloud the parental decisions. I don’t want to be so afraid for my kids that I fuck them up even more, you know? But I also don’t want to treat them like they can’t handle their shit, like they’re stupid, like they don’t know what’s going on in the world around them just because I hide the TV. I’d rather be the one to SHOW them the world and have it make sense to them. That’s how I was raised.

I also wanted to tell you all that I do get your emails. I don’t get that many – maybe 5 a day tops. Sometimes a couple more if I just posted something, but that’s it. I don’t often respond – I’ll be honest. I don’t respond if I’m asked a question that is answered by reading my site. I don’t respond if I’m asked, “How are you?” because that’s what my site does – say how I am. I like to hear people’s opinions on the site or reactions to what I write, and every once in a while, it begins a little dialogue. Sometimes people tell me their own stories, and I do like to read them. I’m sorry, I’m sure it’s a bit frustrating and feels disappointing when you write and ask me to write back, and I don’t. I’ve had quite a few bad experiences with back and forth emailing, to be honest, so I sort of look at is as a can of worms I’m hesitant to open. I’ve had a bunch of people want to email regularly, and if I didn’t write back a fourth time, they got pretty hostile, and blah, blah. I’m sure everyone thinks they’re normal and cool, but after you run into a few crazies you didn’t see coming, you just sort of close the door on the whole thing. Make sense?

I had a dream I got a couple thousand dollars from the government from back-taxes. No chance in hell, but what a lovely dream.

Okay, I need to go shopping for close really badly. Though, I'm much less excited about it seeing as I got a $40 parking ticket last night. I need to PAY IT NOW. My phone bill is already late. Shit.