You know, I was going to write tonight, and I had planned on talking about how bad my day was, how much I hated people. I was going to be negative and miserable and okay with that.

One thing that changed that was the fact that so many of you emailed me offering to give me money because of my wallet incident. That is so fucking sweet and moving I can't even stand it. Thank you so much, you guys, but I can't do that. I'll get my cards in a couple days. Seriously though, I can't even believe it. After those fuckers tried to get me fired from that waitressing job...I had no idea that people could in turn be so generous. Thank you. Thank you.

Now, American Idol. I can't stand it. I can't. I'm having SO much fun watching it, and my eyes have welled up in tears by how excited I am by these performances. OUT OF CONTROL tonight. Just amazing. So amazing that I couldn't handle not singing, and I sent an email out asking to audition for an 80's cover band. Yup. I guarantee not a damn thing will come of it, but I'll keep you posted. I just want to have some fun. 80's...best music ever.

Carrie - it's getting to the point where I'm feeling more jealous than excited. Look, she's great, and I've loved her from day 1. She did amazing tonight. But after she sang that song (a personal favorite of mine to sing with my best friend Laura), I repeated it back and hit all those notes too. I am rooting for Carrie, but I'm jealous. I'll admit that.

Everything Simon said about Bo was SO right. Bo Bice has the ability to make American Idol the farthest thing from cheesy, and no one else in the world could do that. He is cool, and he doesn't give a fuck if he wins. He just loves to sing. He'll have music in his life forever. Also, adorable face.

Constantine, though not my favorite - I think is doing well. I won't say more than that.

Vonzell - that's where I teared up. I love her so much, and she did so beautifully. I think she's just wonderful.

Nadia, she who rocked the last two weeks, bombed tonight. I thought it was a terrible choice, and her voice was shit on it. When she did hit the "high" notes (not high at all), she couldn't even get all the way up there. Fell flat. Though I AM a fan, it was her worst performance.

Mikalah, what is happening. Her voice is exhausted. I watched her original audition off my Tivo. She was fantastic. I think she's bombing. I love her presence, and you KNOW I've been rooting for her since day one. You KNOW that. But I'm worried about her. She cannot pull that thick vibrato together. It's floppy and out of control. I'm scared. I don't know if she's going to make it. So far, the only performance that wasn't very good...though Nadia was pretty bad too this week if you asked me.

Nikko - I don't care. Let me explain, I don't think he's not talented, he is. But if I heard him on the radio, I'd just change the station because I'd be bored. That's it.

Anwar - I don't like that song for him. I like to really hear every note he sings, and that was...too much background. I LOVE his voice, and I want to hear it all. Not his best.

I miss Mario. I'm really sad. God, I would have LOVED to see his performances. He would have blown us away, I know it.

Scott and Anthony - Honestly? Bored. Plan and simple. BORED. I hope Scott's done. Anthony - he redefines the word cheesy. I don't enjoy his performances like I do the others.

Jessica - I like her. I really do. I think this performance was not strong. No chills. I think she has a strong voice, but this makes it sound weak. Looks like the judges don't agree with me. I think it was boring. SO boring. I like her, but nope. How could Simon POSSIBLY say that Jessica out-sang Vonzell? HOW? Vonzell is AMAZING, and I don't see why Simon is not impressed!

Can I say this though? The American Idol make-up artist is a fucking genius. Just great. They all look flawless and gorgeous. Always thought this about this person. Seriously a genius.

WAY too invested in this show. Also...Ryan Seacrest is freakishly small.