I'm not happy. American Idol is no longer my favorite show. I went from totally obsessed - having reoccurring dreams about it, to not wanting to watch it at all. You know, I started to watch it, and I felt like I was doing homework for my least favorite class. I fast forward through parts of songs. I HAVE to fast forward past Paula. I can't listen to one single work that loser says. CANNOT DO IT. She's a fucking suck-up, and I can't listen to her drunk ass bullshit these people any more. Simon makes a SINGLE constructive comment, and she's all, "But look all the fans he has!" Listen - he made it to the top 7. OBVIOUSLY he has fans, but that doesn't mean he's fucking flawless. GOD, I HATE Paula. It's sad too because I loved her to death when I was younger.

Vonzell is seriously fantasic. Um...do you all understand that those notes she's hitting so effortlessly are...I don't know - IMPOSSIBLE!!??!! She's so cute. She's having SO much fun. I adore her.

Carrie - she did shit vocally tonight that I cannot do, and you know how much I love that. I was impressed. One problem - she can't move when she sings. She quickly flutters from one side of the stage to the other, but her body is very stiff.

Scott sucks. Constantine does NOT bother me anymore, and THAT bothers me. Bo's good.

Ugh, I just don't care. Paula needs to go away.

All else is going quite well. Don't feel like talking. Feel like relaxing. I'll write more soon.