I've been gone for a long time. I've been up to a million things and nothing. I read two books, went on a vacation to Mexico, took on a new division at work in addition to our other one, gained back some weight I lost (not too concerned with this one if you can believe it), and developed some sort of sickness that has my stomach aching and my rushing to the bathroom about 7 times a night to either pee or have the runs. So, let's get into it all, shall we?

Firstly, between Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince and the latest episodes of Six Feet Under, I'm just about ready to slit my wrists. I've been reading Harry Potter for years now. I remember reading the first one on my vacation to Canada with Erin to stay with Aine and her family at the house on the enormous freshwater bay. I think they gave me a little shit for reading it since it was still very much advertised as a children's book. I've read every other one since, seen most of the movies on opening night, have had multiple dreams that Harry Potter was my boyfriend (G-rated boyfriend), and currently have a picture of Daniel Radcliffe as my wallpaper on my computer at work. This should officially qualify me as die-hard. You couldn't say I've been a die-hard Six Feet Under fan as I only started watching the DVD's this year. I have not yet seen season 3, which I've heard is arguably the best one. Regardless - I've dedicated a LOT of time, energy, love, heart, conversation, and thought to these characters in these books and shows, so for those of you who have been fans of HP and SFU - you understand what type of a mental breakdown I've been experiencing. In fact, I finished Half Blood Prince and watched that crucial episode of SFU with only one day apart, and I was emotionally drained and completely depressed for days. Seriously too much. Half Blood Prince is NOT a children's novel. Not by a long shot. I read it in three days - and I'm the slowest reader I've ever known.

On the flight to Mexico, I picked up the Kite Runner, and finished over half of it before we arrived at customs in Cancun. Powerful book. Quick read. I love a good book. That one didn't leave me feeling too emotionally sound either, but there is nothing better than looking forward to picking up a phenomenal book.

I was so excited to go to Mexico, it was amazing. 6 days and 5 nights with my sisters with +1's. Warm weather. I've actually missed humidity. Ocean so blue I wanted to disappear in it. We went to an all-inclusive resort - a dangerous place worth every penny. Free food, free drinks (both alcoholic and non-alcoholic), gratuities and taxes all included as well. One day, I went to spa for several hours. Sauna, steam room, aromatherapy jacuzzi, the most comfortable robes and slippers you can imagine. Then, an 80-minute hot stone body massage. An absolute dream. We all took a trip out to Dolphin Discovery where you get to play with them, hug them, and even receive rides on them. There I was, floating on my stomach, and then two dolphin swim beneath me, put their noses under my feet and fly me across the water. Just unbelievable. It was a good time. A great trip.

I came home to lovely three day weekend before returning to work. I had a great time with my friends at a pub crawl in Hermosa Beach, but it was not easy to do after a week of all-you-can-drink. I thought I would be prepared, but instead, I was dehydrated like a mother-fucker.

Now, I feel like total shit. I'm exhausted, I'm pissing out of my ass still from something in the water in Mexico, and my stomach is in acidic knots. Though I love a good routined day, I'm not looking forward to going back to work. Basically, for a slight raise, our division has taken on another division's duties because the last remaining person in that position has found another job. The work is potentially twice or three times as difficult, and there is a panic rising that we will completely bomb. I'm working as hard as I can to mentally prepare for what's going to happen tomorrow, but I'm scared, and I'm nervous.

Don't feel too fantastic, so I'm going to head out. I will talk to you soon.