Well, we're back to the issue of Ellen being threatened. I've already discussed this. Puck indeed does things for shock value, and he warned us of it, so we knew.

I mean, half of this episode is about this Ellen/Puck situation that I think does not merit that much discussion. It's just simple. I did think Ellen was overreacting when it happened. I do think everyone takes things too seriously. It became this whole issue, as I've mentioned before, about whether or not we should go to this wedding. People were all opposed to supporting this "villain" who apparently said something that upset someone even though NONE of us witnessed it and NO ONE approached Puck to hear his side. I find that interesting. I liked to hear about it because it was something that was going on at the time, and I had probably already read the same magazines four times over. Naturally, I was not involved in this fight either. Melissa says in the interview that going to Puck's wedding would be saying that it's okay to talk to a member of our team that way, and it's not. Yeah, I can see what she means, but I didn't see it that way. I didn't look at things in terms of teams or sides or supporting or denying. It was about a wedding that sounded fun to go to. Nothing else. And really, that's all it was. Dan's interviews speak the truth - always.

As far as someone "stopping" Puck...what does that mean? Who should stop Puck and why? When you don't like Puck, you ignore him, you leave him alone, you stay away from him. You do NOT yell at him, confront him, make him explain things. Taming Puck is not a responsibility that anyone needs to put on their shoulders, and why should they. The man is doing a great job. He's Americas new comedic hero. His plotlines are the only essence of the show, and we knew that would be the case going into it. We knew we were happy that he could carry the entertainment level up because if the show were just about me, it would be 17 episodes of sun-tanning and ramen-eating.

Tonya looks good in her interview.

Oh, Aneesa holding her breasts while Ellen cries is pure genius. God, the juxtaposition of comedy and tragedy in this one shot makes this episode legendary in my mind. This scene alone. Oh, there is a clip here of me lying on the couch and holding my armpit. That was deliberate. I wanted to have my arm up, but I can never get a clean shave under there...ew. So, I held it. Trust me, you're very happy I did that.

Blair confronts Puck. This is actually a great scene. Blair makes a good point. Puck then makes a good point as well. "Get over it," Puck says, "Dude, she came right in my face and did this," where he then gives the most hysterical impression of a smug smile I have ever seen.

Now, when the wedding was being planned, David (New Orleans) had written a song for it. He approached me and asked me to sing. Now, this was the only conflict I had the whole time I was there. I was not sure what to do about this. I felt like I had closed the chapter of singing on a BMP show, so did I want to collaborate with Mr. Come On Be My Baby Tonight? Maybe we could combine that with something about working tankies, and together we could give ourselves an even more spectacular reputation than we already had. I declined. I told him that I was sorry, but that I got burned from singing on my show last time, and I wasn't ready to do it again. He was insulted. I felt a little bad. Ended up not mattering though because David got sent home. So, I was in the clear until some boys told me that Puck wanted someone to sing at the wedding at some point. I was immediately stressed. I wasn't specifically asked, I wouldn't know what to sing, I just didn't know what was going on. I told the boys that if Puck wanted me to sing at his wedding, I would appreciate if he or Betty would ask me themselves. Otherwise, I didn't feel comfortable. I didn't think it would happen, but Puck and Betty came up to me in the Chili's Lounge and asked if I could please sing at the wedding. Well, of course I would if they asked me themselves. It's their wedding, for god sakes. So, Aneesa and I sang the Rose by Bette Midler in harmony at the end of the ceremony. While we sang, I looked directly into Puck and Betty's eyes, and watched us, looking right back into ours with warm, gracious smiles and tears in their eyes (not from our singing, but because they were just married, obviously.) It was a nice moment. I couldn't believe that I sang at Puck's wedding. I sang at Puck's wedding. If you told me that would happen in 1994 or 5 (whenever San Fran aired), I would never believe it.

Genesis's dress was the curtain over our beds. Very creative and beautiful. Mark's outfit is out of control. Dan is priceless and perfect. It was a fun, fun time. It was too bad everyone wouldn't go.

Dan has once again proven to me that he is the best reality star there ever was. There is nothing he says that does not entertain me. I felt that way when I watched Miami, and I feel that way today.

The wedding scenes: God, it really was beautiful there, huh? You know, it felt like prison at the time. Yes, I DID have a little tear when they whispered I love you to each other during the ceremony. Come on, how could you not? Love is beautiful.

Also, Betty's comment, "Today is the one day that is not the Battle of the Sexes, it is the joining of the sexes." I like that.

Anyway, it was a good night.

My part in the show - nothing. God, without this website, would you even know I was on it? Things will turn around, I'm sure...