and David Show
I shouldn't name these by missions because it's just so not
about the missions. I don't know if it ever will be.
We'll start with the Julie/Melissa situation because that
can be tackled really easily. I was going to comment much
more on this, but it seems as though Julie got her word in
on her site, Melissa got hers in on MTV.com, so considering
that I have nothing to do with it at all, there's no point
on my commenting on it. The fact is, everything for me is
word of mouth. I never witnessed anything that happened to
either of them before this, and I didn't even witness much
that went on when we were all there together in Jamaica. I
know that everyone knew Julie was shady except a select few
- most likely the few that were in interviews. I know that
Julie did NOTHING in Jamaica that anyone could witness that
would illustrate the reputation she has had over the past
few years. I know that it was impossible for Julie to come
off looking bad because she didn't do anything wrong while
we were there.
I also know that there was no question that she would be going
home soon. Yes, she's a great competitor, but the girls had
decided off the bat that we were more interested in team unity
than individual strengths. We never saw her ever. She just
wasn't around. Ellen came up to me after the mission while
we were on the beach and said, "Julie is really nervous
that they're going to vote her off."
My response - "Well...she should be, she's totally going
"But WHY? We came in 4th place! If she goes home that's
totally bullshit and I'm going to say something," very
Ellen of her.
"Well, she's going to go home, everyone knew she'd go
home first no matter what." I was even surprised that
Ellen was surprised about this.
Either way, this inner circle thing is not very informative.
I've been curious to know what really went on in inner circles,
and in this episode, you don't even see how they came to that
conclusion. What's the point of the inner circle scene if
we don't get to hear how they come to their conclusions? I
mean, it sounded like they didn't think as a group that voting
Julie off was the best idea, but they all then decided unanimously
that she is. Melissa only says she thinks Julie should go,
but I don't see her spreading rumors and trying to make people
do it. I was disappointed with that editing. Now, I'll never
Now, Ellen. Let's talk for a sec. WHY are you crying that
Julie's leaving? We've been there for about five minutes,
and you two are not friends. How could you be so pissed about
this? Who cares? It's the one girl no one has been talking
to within the five minutes we were there. That's retarted.
So, I didn't realize the show was going with the whole "Melissa
setting a bad tone" thing. I just thought no one cared
that Julie was leaving. I know that no one helped her pack
and we were all drinking Red Stripes and Pina Coladas down
at the bar. So, I'm curious as to how this got to be so crazy.
The guys don't know what they're talking about at all - they
aren't involved. Shane's a sweetheart, but what the hell does
he know about Julie?
Okay, topic done.
Interesting. Again, how is one to know who is lying? David
is screaming at Puck that he beats his wife. Now, a lot of
people here know Puck very well, and they seem to believe
that David is talking about of his ass about that. So I asked,
"So, is he just completely lying right now?" But
there was so much chaos that I don't remember if anyone bothered
to answer me. We don't know how they started screaming. I
don't know if anyone knows. I do know that Eric and Marc seemed
to be on the side of Puck, and no one seemed to like David
much at all. In my opinion, this is for good reason. I was
horribly uncomfortable around him. David was never more than
a ticking bomb. Who knows why he ever started screaming, but
it is clear that his temper is outrageous, his mind is delusional,
and his general personality is completely negative. He was
the single most childish person I have ever known, and I walked
out of his path every chance because he was like a storm -
would wreck anything in his way. It was clear that he provoked
Puck when Puck was trying to calm down and walk away from
the situation. Granted, Puck would throw in some silly statements
about his mom needing to shave her back, but that's Puck,
I guess. Anyway, David's provoking was unacceptable to me.
When Puck spit, David admitted it was his intentions to drive
Puck to that point. Now, who's worse? Of course, the contract
says that you cannot spit, but I think that's stupid. Spitting
is nothing compared to most verbal abuse that takes place.
So, Jon Murray feels obligated and tells Puck as we are on
the way to film the opening credits that he is kicked off
the show. We were annoyed because we wanted to get going.
Now, I thought it would suck if Puck got kicked off, of course,
but after that, I really didn't care much. Not all of us cared
at all. Rachel wanted this shit over with so we could get
off the bus. So, people like Ayanna, Beth, and Jisella began
the rally on the bus. Like motivational speakers they started
telling us that we need to stand up to "the man"
or whatever - about not letting production do whatever they
want. People were uniting to keep Puck and someone yelled
out that if Puck goes, we all go, and they have no show. So,
now we have an issue. You get off the bus to support Puck,
or you stay on the bus to stand against him. One problem -
where do you go when you don't give a shit and don't want
to be involved? I didn't want Puck to go, but I'm not one
to argue with contracts. He broke the rule, and that's all
I know. I was hoping Jon would be lenient because Puck was
a good guy, but whatever. So, now I have to get off the bus
because staying on is a bigger statement than getting off.
So, one would say I'm being a follower for getting off when
everyone else did. Not really - I didn't care enough to make
a statement. I didn't rally around Puck and scream at the
camera or Jon. I stood off on the side and made phone calls
about how stupid this shit was getting. Blair thought that
whoever left would be replaced without a problem. He said
that he was positive that phone calls were already being put
out at that very moment for replacements from the previous
casts. He said that he'll go home because he'll just do the
next one. I'm annoyed - we're already here in Jamaica, I don't
want the show to end - this sucks.
So, David is going crazy, being the psychopath, not wondering
that maybe when you're standing alone - you should consider
why, that there might be a reason no one "has your back."
Puck says, fine, you can spit in my face. David mocks him
for stooping so low, and now David just sucks. Puck kept his
end of the bargain, and now David is a super shit. David still
gets to be in the opening, but he dances around people making
childish noises and claiming that he got BMP to give him MORE
money than everyone else was getting to stick around. Then
I'm annoyed more, but I just want to move past it, so whatever.
We get back on the bus, and half the bus is crying because
they are swelling with pride for having stood up for what
we believed in and conquered. I didn't cry. I thought this
was all boring and I wanted to get back to sitting by the
pool and hanging out with the chill girls. Too much drama
for me. How did I get myself into it?
What else is there to speak of? Oh God, Laterrian. He's CRAZY,
but I think we touch upon this more next episode. Let's be
clear of this so far though. We've been here for four days
now, actually, more like three, and Laterrian hasn't slept...AT
ALL. I got into an argument with him, and I never argue, so
you can imagine how out of brain he was.
I don't know if there is much else, actually. A long episode,
but quite self-explanatory and pretty straight-forward. People
talk about how entertaining it is, but I guess it's hard for
me to see it like that. I watch it and think about how fucking
hot it was there, how long it took to ever get everyone together
to do something. Well, more conflicts are soon to come that
involve much more interesting back stories...
I forgot to say a few things. Firstly, how Tonya became my
partner. I was one of the biggest Tonya fans in the world
when we got there. I knew very little of her, only that her
reputation was pretty horrible from her season. The one thing
that intrigued me from the get-go was that she was not bitter.
Finding a Real Worlder who is not bitter, especially after
a show like that, well, not only is it rare - it's downright
impossible. In Tonya's case, she is not bitter because she
was not a victim of editing, like most of us believe we are.
She believes she acted as badly as her show illustrated, so
she was able to confront herself and deal with it on her own.
This makes for a better, stronger, more compassionate Tonya.
I don't know anyone who had a problem with her. She was well-liked,
very sweet, very interesting. She and I were inseparable during
those first few days, and we picked each other for teammates
immediately after it was announced we need partners. We even
trained together a little with lifting and sprinting up the
hill. People liked Tonya, she is not the same girl from Chicago.
She was also open-minded. As a nurse-type, she took it upon
herself to take care of everyone who was sick - which was
everyone. A bacteria was in our food, giving nearly half the
cast severe diarrhea, and it IS as gross as it sounds. People
lost 10 pounds on average the whole time we were there. Anyway,
whatever went around, Tonya was exposed to it, so this girl
who has been healthy and sans kidney issues for months was
suddenly not feeling so well, and it was basically because
she was so generous with everyone else. She doesn't get really
sick or anything, no more sick than anyone else, and they
won't make a show of it, but that's something that was going