Okay, is anyone else bored? I think this episode was sort of boring. And there really aren't that many back stories that I know much about, so I don't think there's much to discuss at all.

Tonya and Ellen hate Puck. Well, I mean, knowing everyone's personalities here, of course they do. Tonya doesn't like potty-humor - we learned that during her season. Ellen isn't a big fan of it either, which is weird because Adam from RR10 was a big potty-humor type of guy, and she liked him. Either way - blah, blah, blah.

Betty. I didn't get to talk to her much, but she strikes me as a real put-together chick who brings out Puck's most sincere, loving, and well-behaved side. She's a laid-back lady who is absolutely perfect for Puck (from what little I know of him.) Bogart - unbelievably cute. Puck was SO right with what he said to Emily. Not all babies are cute, but this one REALLY is. I love seeing Puck with his boy too. Very nurturing.

Anyway, Ayanna and David? What?!? I didn't know a THING about this, and considering the fact that I love gossip and Real Worlders are notorious for knowing everyone's business, I am totally shocked that I am hearing about this for the first time. So strange. But okay. I have no opinion on this, I don't know either of them very well at all.

The mission. We found out about the mission early. There's always someone who can find things out. Puck and Eric Neiss seem to find out the most dirt, and though they try to keep it from the girls, it always leaks to us. So, I was determined to do well. I practiced. I sat in my room with a watch and held my breath over and over, trying to increase it both times. I pushed myself past my limit, tried to get used to the idea of feeling like I'm going to die. I tried holding that breath in different parts of my body, like my diaphragm vs my stomach or my mouth. I think I was able to hold it for a minute and fifteen seconds. I can't remember, but I'm pretty sure that was the best I could do.

We get to the mission. We hold our breath. What things were out of order are not really important or interesting AT ALL. However, I WILL make excuses - and get over it if you think I'm whining. Seriously, men have more red blood cells and a more lung tissue than women according to "Science of the Sexes" on Discovery Channel. Women's lung tissue, if lined up, fills the singles part of a tennis court. Men's fill the the whole half court, including the doubles area. Because men have more red blood cells, they are able to hold more oxygen in their system for longer. It is an absolute fact. There was no way we could win this one.

I was scared shitless when it was my turn, I'll tell you that. They try to scare you with this shit. I can't remember what they showed in the episode, but you would get into position, then they would lower you to your NECK for a minute. You sit there silently for a whole minute, your body feeling like it's being pulled downward, and you feel the salty water splashing against your chin before you hear that damn horn, and the moaning sounds of the crane beginning to turn as you are pulled beneath the service. Well, since the water is so salty, your body is apt to float more unlike being in a pool - so the pull to stay below is MUCH more difficult. The combination of that with simply how terrifying it is to be peer pressured into not breathing made for MUCH shorter time under the water. I felt myself convulse twice, but if you get crazy, they make you come up for air. So, I felt my body freak out completely out of my control, and then I would try to relax before I was asked to stop competing. I'm telling you, it feels like you're dying. Shane had stayed down there for a LONG time and had gone before me, and he said that it really felt like he was going to die several times while I was down there. So, I said to myself, "Okay, you can stay longer than you think - if you feel like you're dying, don't worry, you're not." I mean, you're not going to die. If you stayed down there as long as you could before dying, you'd just faint, and the bungee would bring you up to the surface anyway. All that makes sense. Still, when you feel like you're dying, you do what you can to save yourself. You fucking let go and get air. That's what I did. I waited first for someone to go up before me. I saw Tonya go up and I thought, "Well, Tonya's good, so that's enough for me." Up I went.

I'm sorry, this write up sucks because I've been putting it off. Most boring episode in the world...

So, blah blah blah, David has to leave and Jisela has to leave. We had a fun night at the bar. We danced a lot, and Jisela went out in style. Dan was very proud of her for having so much class. I got along with her just fine, but we didn't interact all that much. She and Coral hate each other, but she never said a bad word about her around me, so we were cool on that. I don't know, we just didn't hang out. There were still so many of us that we were broken apart into groups still. The only thing I didn't like was how mean she was to my favorite director - Laura. Jisela claims that Laura screwed her over by telling Jisela she would be portrayed just fine when she was on the RW visiting Malik. I suppose she blamed Laura for her negative reputation. I'm not a part of this, but that's what I heard. I could be all wrong. Either way, I heard her insult Laura where she could hear her to offend her, and I was really upset about that. Laura is a cool lady, and if this WAS the case, no one can be to blame for our poor misrepresentations. Even I can't blame anyone else for showing clips of me singing horribly. I should never have allowed myself to be recorded if I didn't sound my best. I have to take responsibility for that.

There's nothing else to discuss. Oh wait, Ellen and Puck...

Stupid. Ellen got upset about Puck telling her to go away or he'll kick her ass. I guess if a guy ever said he'd kick my ass, I'd be upset, but I can't imagine that happening. First off, I think we ALL know that Puck would never touch her. He wanted to scare her and piss her off, which is what she gets for insulting him and picking a fight with him. Not to sound childish, but she started it. Anyway, she felt threatened, and it certainly is never cool for a man to physically threaten a girl. Was she actually afraid? I hope not, and if she was, that I do feel horribly for her. However, I NEVER believed for a second he would actually touch her. We all knew that. People start to decide whether they should attend his wedding out of principle now. This gets to be an annoying conflict for me in next episode. It was totally a getting off/staying on the bus situation. I didn't care one way or another to make a statement for or against the wedding, and now I was forced to decide who I would "side with." So lame. I need people to leave me out of their crusades. I'll fight my own if I ever get any.

Okay, so the episode is over. <snore>