I'm mad. I'm sorry, I would like to think I'm passed bitching about goddamn Bunim-Murray, but I'll come right out and say it, I'm fucking sick and tired of their goddamn bullshit. Seriously. I don't care. Call me bitter, call me whatever the fuck you want, I'm just telling you. You know, it's one thing if you are an asshole and only an asshole. It's one thing if you're a horrible person and the world discovers it. It's one thing if you are bitchy, miserable, inconsiderate, and fucking lame all the goddamn time and the cameras fucking see it. HOWEVER, it's ANOTHER THING when there IS a story to be told and they do not fucking tell it. It's seriously lame. And though god knows whether or not I plan on involving myself with this group of irrational, hypocritical, biased assholes, I still don't appreciate the crap they pull, and I don't care whether or not they read this because they fucking KNOW what they are doing. They KNOW they tell half the story. They know it. Most often they tell a version so damn skewed that it no longer resembles the truth.

Now, I need to be a bit more realistic than I once was about this crap. After being out of the show for a season, certain things have become clearer, and the main thing is that these seven strangers are put on this show for you to laugh at. It's true. We really don't know this when we get that call that we made it. We think we'll make a difference, be loved, have a great time. We do in some respects, but that's not why we're here. I don't care how noble the casters are or their intentions, it's about ratings, it's about establishing roles of heroes and villains. None of us are heroes. None of us are villains. We are MADE that way for YOU, and as an audience member myself, I can appreciate the fact that we don't owe shit to the cast members such as myself who were too stupid to realize the reality of their fortune. I will no longer ask you to have pity, to be sympathetic, to give the benefit of the doubt. I probably wouldn't either AT ALL if I didn't know the cast member personally. I ask nothing of anyone anymore in that respect. However, I feel better when I say out loud how fucking bullshit it is when they make an asshole a stud, make the insecure child an icon of power, make a strong and courageous lady into a babbling little girl, and make a warm-hearted genuine man a rejected fool. It is NOT fair that some are rewarded and some are punished. I've seen them take the most boring fucking losers and turn them into idols. I've seen them take true givers and turn them into dipshits. I resent them for this. I watch the show, I look forward to the ten spot, but I despise those who make the decisions on how to manipulate our characters. I do. I'm not having it, and I don't fucking care who reacts.

IMPORTANT POINT:
I need to focus a bit more on one sentence I slapped on here with not nearly enough necessary elaboration. We are not heroes, we are not villains. I don't mean to bash anyone here, and no one specific. I don't mean to say that all those that have been portrayed well are serious assholes that don't deserve it at all. However, I'm saying that it is very difficult to witness individuals who have flaws seem flawless. It is not fair to take certain cast members and focus EXCLUSIVELY on their negatives, and it is equally unfair to take other cast members and focus EXCLUSIVELY on their positives. It feels VERY deliberate, and you start to wonder if the story board people actually sit around laughing and saying, "Let's just screw this person. I just don't like him," and work their asses off to pull any video evidence of the person being lame and hiding any evidence of the person's feelings or actions being completely justifiable. I mean, do they know how biased they're being? Do they know they favor some over others? Do Mary-Ellis and Jon actually sit around and say, "This person will be the [insert stereotype], that person will be the [insert stereotype]"? They claim they don't, but I don't know where they get off telling one-sided stories like they do. I just don't know how the fuck they sleep at night sometimes. Maybe they don't mean to do it. Maybe I'm being harsh. They are obviously brilliant to have such a long running show, and one CANNOT help but admire them for their success. It's just that people become products, and it upsets me sometimes. They know this, they've dealt with complaining cast members for over a decade. It feels like that so much that it's hard not to believe it. We audience members are MADE to feel certain ways. We are taken for a ride of comedy and tragedy, and we enjoy it. I enjoy it. It just really really sucks for seven people. Only seven of millions and millions of people. Well, seven and their significant others in life that are affected by editing as well. So, let me reiterate that I'm not asking anyone to watch with an insightful eye. That's boring. I'm merely venting because…well, I have a website and giving my opinion and perspective is what I do here.